May 17

Today I feel a combination of emotions:  sad, apathetic, angry about what happened, disappointed in my inability to handle this, unmotivated to keep getting better because of my lack of progress in the past few days. Yesterday was his birthday. I felt so sad and angry knowing that he was probably enjoying his day, while I am suffering because of something that he did to me. I did not choose this. I have been thinking about the unfairness of it all. I know life is not fair, but in situations like this, it is difficult to accept. I feel like giving up and just pushing all of this out. I am so tired of always thinking about it and letting it consume my life. I want to be free  from this.